ain't a girl, not yet a woman

Hurdle

2011-02-16T07:26:00.000-08:00

How am I gonna handle so many things that come to me at once?
People said, TIME MANAGEMENT.

Yes,

but im stuck somewhere. Lost.
It's the pressure from nowhere that suffocating me. I dont know why I should be stressed? I dont wanna be like what I did today during hurdle, stop in front of the hurdle instead of jumping over it :/ argh.

Positivity, please come back to mama.
NEVER SAY NEVER ANYMORE YEE LING! this is your biggest challenge in 2011, YOU CAN DO IT! :) TRUST YOURSELF! Just do it! :D

16/2/11

11:33pm

Nostalgic

2011-02-12T22:57:00.000-08:00

男人的“三从四德”

老婆出门要跟从
老婆命令要听从
老婆错误要盲从

老婆脾气要忍得
老婆花钱要舍得
老婆化妆要等得
老婆生日要记得

:P

The first time I feel soooooo nostalgic when traveling. I missed Malaysia weather darn much as the icy cold weather in China was killing and hurting. China people were terrible. I don't wanna mention why. You'll know why if you get to travel there *wink*

Well, at least they have doors for toilets now. hahahaa!

Overall, this trip is so-so only. I was merely amazed by the beauty of JiangLangShan as well as the incredible engineering technology of ancient people in Long-you Grottoes . I feel so grateful that I always have chances to travel oversea. I may miss something in Malaysia as this trip took me about a week. I gotta abandon my study my friends and everything in Malaysia for a week. But only through traveling, I can get to know the world better and always be contented. & realized how good Malaysia already is! hahahaahaaaa!

I think my vocab is back its mama now hahaaa. So, allow me to end this post with this picture! :D

PS: Aiyayaaa. Wish me luck in catching up with study yo :O

3:10pm

13/2/2010

Hectic

2011-01-21T02:02:00.000-08:00

to the power of 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000

The timetable has been using its pseudopodia to engulf my life and my soul. INSANE!
Now I can even blog with those scientific names. Ah! I can't imagine I actually abandoned my blog for 3 weeks. What? 3 WEEKs! hahaaaa. Realizes I'm a little giler now? Yes, I am. I barely find any slots for 'internet', not to mention about blogging. I left my blog not updated for almost a month!

So, anyway.

we are feeling good :D

Form4 year is errrr. Well exactly like my title for this post.
and I seriously wonder who is the person that described form4 as a honeymoon year? Absolutely doesn't make sense okay! yet I feel like its a big turning of my life. The first gate to my ambition.

But its a challenge when I want to find the balancing point among my study, school suckish co-curriculum activities, personal life, student reporter and social life. etc. when all mixed up together I feel like Im drinking a glass of juice from chilies, lemon, pear and bitter guard. The taste is soooo disturbing and disgusting. but they are fruits and vegetables which are good for my health! Perhaps after I drink it I would not constipate anymore! HAHA! -.-

Same goes to the reality of my life. I may feel like giving up now. For example, give up taking Chinese subject, give up the responsibility as a student reporter, give up the time with my friends, giving up everything and just study. Is this how it should be?

" Does study really worth that much? " Vivian said.

Does it worth that much to building a wall between me and the world, just for the sake of studying? NO NO. School life is not just plainly about study, Yee Ling! Don't give up anything you are grasping right now. Stick to the decision you made. Heee :) You may feel heavy now but who knows one day you will be grateful that you made these decisions. And remember, you're not alone! :)

Happy birthday to you, you live in the zoo, you look like a monkey, and you act like one too! this lyrics is cute! hahaaaa!

Random post. Chinese New Year is around the corner! Annual family trip is coming!
Woooooohaaahaa! Excitement fills my heart!
oppps. I recorded video of dancing again by the way. Hahaaa the interest of dancing is still raising mum mum mia! hahaaaa!

Off to yoga! Heeee bye!

If you want peace for an hour,

read.

If you want peace for an afternoon,

sleep.

If you want peace for a day,

go to the beach.

If you want peace for a week,

kiss Mum.

If you want peace for a year,

give to the needy.

If you want peace for a lifetime,

simply forgive!

Form 4!

2011-01-02T05:37:00.000-08:00

Happy new year everyone!
2010 was a pretty fine year for me. yeah sure there were ups and downs last year but I appreciate everything that life brought to me. I personally think that I've turned into a steadier person. Yet uh, I'm still not courageous enough, not confident enough, not sociable enough etc. So conclusion is, there is waaayyyy much more to be improved this year! :D

I have no big resolutions this year, I just wanna live my life to its fullest! and be happier! :)

Happy school everyone! :P

2/1/2011

9:41pm

Take me away!

2010-12-31T02:12:00.000-08:00

Finally I get to upload this video successfully! Ahahaa! make it as the last post of 2010 :D
I recorded this video is to see where my weaknesses are. and yeah, I have a lot! :( No powerful enough, too rushing etc. However, I wanna improve! :D

Teacher: Rebecca Lee from Soul Krazy (I wish Im not a shame of her hahaa!)
Song: Come on girl by Taio Cruz

Feel free to comment people! :)

坚持到底，他一定很爱你！

2010-12-29T03:09:00.000-08:00

I can't let the laziness to take over me again! :O hahaa. It has been a week since my last update. Apology? Heee. Guess Im becoming an inactive internet user huh. I don't update my facebook status, I seldom view my friends' profile and blogs. Today, there was a voice ordering me that I've to be active on both virtual and real social worlds! Yee Ling ah Yee Ling, kawan ah kawan :D

2011 is just a few days ahead! Am looking forward! :D and,
I'm here to resuscitate my blog! woohooo!

Well I know Im kinda late to talk about Christmas hahaa. But yo! I actually spent my Christmas eve with my sampat friends! thanks Wanyi for always gathering us together :) sigh Vivian didn't manage to turn up :/ I had much fun though I think we weren't crazy and got high enough! :D

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my friends and my name were publicized on Sin Chew Daily!

Where did I go last week? -- I got chosen to take part in the student reporter training camp by Sin Chew Daily!

Meeting up with all top students from different areas just instantly made me feel so small. Like how? They were not only of those excel in study but were also good at organizing events etc. Some of them had good leadership. There were excitement, tears, tension and laughter in this camp. When all mixed up together, it's a new taste in my life. I got so much invaluable things from this camp -- friendship and development of self.

ignore my messy bedroom.

look at my backpack! did I tell you my biggest dream is to travel around the world as a backpacker? :D

excitement
I used to camp for a reason -- for a person. Yet now, I camp for my future -- for myself. This training camp decided my entire form4 school life. Through this camp, I've learnt about how a camp works, how to write for a publication, how to interview a person and so on. Doing things that I never have done before. Freshness of life brings me excitement :D

tears
The second time I cried during a camp. You know, this is a completely different camp compared to the camps that I used to take part in. The facilitators were literally yelling and scolding you every single minute! They shouted when you walked slowly; They shouted when you just going to take off your shirts to bathe etc. Imagine, if your closest ones treat you in that way everyday. They never smile at you. Neither be kind for you. For the four days three nights, I almost went insane -.- We got no watches or cellphone and totally had no idea about how time passed. Day, night. Day, night. I got especially nostalgic at night. Sleepless :(

tension
well well. we walked 5km from SJK(C)Guang Han to KTM station. To interview! OMG OMG. Interview strangers! this was so ~~cool~~ scary! We were given a topic " Our Malaysian culture is being left behind among youngsters, what's your opinion? " and we needed to interview the people waiting at KTM station there. It might seem easy for some of you guys but its really hard for me. What if those who being interviewed are speechless? How are you going to make them speak out? Because after that you have to write a report within half an hour to conclude their point of views. A big mission to me. Cold sweat, stiff, embarrassing smile, stammering. Just imagine how weird do I look -.-

he only got a few pictures on internet :O this is the best hahaaa! cute right!

laughter
I had my most enjoyable moments when Rawang Boy 钟进贺, our ex Xueji leader giving speech. he had such good sense of humour! When everyone of us were crying, stiffened, he was always able to soften the atmosphere, made laughter. I love the way he talks! and his bloody cute body size! HAHAAA. like a ball! Just like my brother :D

By the way, my title was the slogan of the camp :)

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I dont know why I love this picture so much! like the purest sampat us!

haha! ah yi ah yi :P

Vivian has less words in her blog, I have less pictures in my blog. Hahahaa. What's wrong ah? Weee! Off to.. dinner! Oh Im recording my dance video. wish me luck to upload the video successfully! hahaaa!

Muah!

29/12/11

7:14pm

What next?

2010-12-19T01:29:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time...

age: 4 to 6

1999 to 2001

I had long hair!fish braid some more! :P

and the handsome little boy next to me was my crush xD I confessed to him before! haha! bet he doesn't remember!

age: 11

2006.

and this were my terrible yet cutie days :P haha!

primary school! no long hair was allowed unless I was learning ballet :/ SO WHAT. guess I was the most daring one in school xD see! I could actually spike up my hair! haha!

age: 13

June, 2008.

Form 1 was a totally different me :D as you can see my short hair grew longer, reached my ears. and I look so cute with this kind of bang haha!

age: 14

January

February

2009

I've been wanting some stylish or unique hairstyles, so this was one of them! one side short one side long :P still can remember one of the comments was "hey, your hair got bitten by dog?" -.- well I hardly received any compliments. haha! but I love this hairstyle so much!

November

December. prom night


school look

most of my friends especially guys said I look nice with long hair.

Then I tried to grow it. this wasn't really long though.

Now, I anti long hair. I looked even paler than usual with long hair okay! HAHAA.

The way how the others look at me doesn't matter to me anymore.

I will do whatever according how I feel. Don't.ever.try to.change.me.again.

because I'm living for myself :)

age: 15

January, 2010

back to short hair. the brand new year. The new me was born :D

February, 2010

the shortest bang I've ever had :P practically just a few hair at front.

love it! I didn't always need to clip it up! LOL

March,2010

April, 2010.

and my most daring hairstyle. I actually dyed my hair dark blue! hahaa! no teachers realized that :P and mushroom short hair is the hit!

June,2010

when mushroom becomes curly :p

when mushroom hair got styled, July 2010

mushroom short hair rocks! xD

I love this! but I hate that I don't have much hair :/

I need to always blow the mushroom only it looks nice. hahaa

August, 2010.
Mushroom became annoying when it grew longer. So, perm it! :D

November, 2010.
yay! made my hair even more curly!

December,2010

curly mushroom!

Ding Dong! random post! Hahaaa.
really got no idea what hairstyle should I have next :/ hmmm. any idea? haha!

19/12/10

5:35pm

Madam ADA LINE!

2010-12-14T07:38:00.000-08:00

That's how i always make fun of her name, Adeline :)

Well this is another post that i especially write for my besties heee. I guess by expressing how I truly feel for my friend is much more meaningful than any present that money can buy yeah? (Hey guys don't you think this is a great idea/ excuse for not buying a present :P) Oh well, you know it! Friendship is priceless! It can't be weighed by how expensive the present is! xD I didn't buy anything for her though hahaaa. Imma be a bad friend XD

i think this is our first picture? form1! hahaaa and i remember wah lung was in front of us. don't-know-what school event was going on. xD

Hahaaa. Adeline! Do you still remember how we know each other? No? Yes?
Okay honestly, I can't recall :P Yet I have a clear picture that there was once you argued with Hui Shen. You chose to leave her and came to me. We sat together since then. Was that how our friendship started off? Hahaaa

our acting-lesbian picture! it was year 2008. hahaaa. remember? we're with Hui Shen.

Celebrating both your birthdays :D

Kian Lim's birthday! the first time I saw you wearing skirt? hahaa!

kinda random picture hahaa! denice edited this? hahaa! i wanna kisssss you! :P

our sampat time -.- hahaa! our sivik project ended up like that :P

I admit that I'm a hot-tempered, kind of stubborn and emotional person. At times, I might just get mad at you unreasonably. And there was once my jealousy and inferiority took over me as your popularity was raising fast. Hahaaaa. That maybe only just my own fight and I don't think you even realized it if i never told eh? YOU BIG BIG NOOBIE DUMMY :P

you wearing sari! tak boleh pakai lah you're too skinny hmmmp

Heeee! during our break time of working! hahaaa! so great lah these memories :) we're on the road camwhoring baby! xD

us with Sofea! heee! still prefer your student uniform rather than prefect :/

our future dentist! hahaa! before our PMR! loving your smile :)

How am I gonna describe you? Uh hmm. Pure H2O? hahaaaaa

You're another innocent baby to me besides Denice! As pure as pure water hee! you know, when i realized that you were so eager to meet me up just to ask my opinion about your relationship, I feel good :D Indeed. Though you are always not sensitive enough to my emotions... you give me chances to take a peek at your inside thought sometimes. Hahhaaa. PS: A good friend will always make you feel important :) Im gonna list out things that I love doing with you hahaaa

I love arguing with you
I love we can always hit our asses against each other's
I love resting my arm on your shoulder
I love it when I "accidentally" step on your shoes, you will shout : Wei, I just washed them! and step on mine again
I love we lean against the classroom door and look out at the greenly field, chat about anything from school leng zai leng lui to our future. and when teacher comes, we run back to our seats XD
I love each time after we snap a picture, you will always complain that your hair is messy, your face looks weird.. and again we snap. again you complain, again we snap .. XD

the list goes on.

Haahahaa. Things we experienced together might seem little for you but they mean a lot to me. They are part of my school life memories. :)

Awwww my hair stands -.- How can I actually write something so geli to you! LOL. ini macam a confession post hahaaa! wei Adeline Wong Be Wern,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

thanks Vivian for making all this to Deline! heee! again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DELINE! its almost 12am and Im rushing to finish this post! hahaaa

=D May all your wishes come true! Be cheerful always! I CINTA PADAMU! hahaaaa! Muah!

PS: By the way, Deline ah, can you please help me to say thanks to your mom?

Because NO her, NO you, NO us! :D

14/12/2010

11:45pm

the sun emerges

2010-12-09T02:47:00.000-08:00

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
woke up reluctantly in the gloomy morning yoga and had breakfast ate sour pineapple and worked as a waitress till afternoon and go home with exhausted body and ate a slice of salty cheese and a sweet banana. Hahaaa. My day was average.

Life is kinda plain for me now but I wouldn't say its boring. I was walking in a shopping centre yesterday and I really do love the feeling for being alone. It's not the feeling of lonely. Wandering around in a book store, I was blank-minded. How awesome is that, when a normal human being can actually have time to think of nothing. Hahaaa its weird though. Call me giler. Well i think im just simply contented :)

Uh huh. but I do indulge myself in some awesome food sometimes! haaahha!

ahaa! I had 北京田鸭 at Hong Kee located at Connaught with my sis and her boyfriend. these are just the skin of the duck. they taste great together with the sauce!

and at the same day, we went all the way to Asia Cafe at Subang to eat these delicate and delicious sushi! take a look people! :D

they don't just impress you with their appearance heehee :P when you get to chew them, all the ingredients mixed together.. woah you'll just go speechless and you just gonna remember the taste forever! Hmmmmm~

look at our reactions when eating those sushi! even my dad who is loath eating sushi, loves them! :D

Sushi Heng! You'll fall in love with him once you eat the sushi that he made! its like a drug hahaa! but you'll get intimidated by his serious-looking as well. He glared at me when I took his picture. Maybe he doesn't like to be captured? and he doesn't talk much hahaa. Hoho! yeah one thing! if you get to order his sushi, don't order from the menu. It would be a waste if you order from the menu. So, request him to create some sushi on spot! hahaa

TIPS: while waiting, be a patient and enthusiastic audience. hahaa. I describe customer as audience because the process is absolutely like a performance! hahaaa. You can feel his heart making those sushi. and for sure the sushi you're going to eat will taste even better! Awww I'm serious! heee!

Last Saturday. When I was being tortured by my own guiltiness, my sister bought a bouquet of flowers and wrote an apology letter to cheer mom up! Hahahaa. However mom's response was kind of unreadable when she received it urgh. Sister and I spent the night doubting whether mom has forgiven us.. And delightedly, the next day mom smiled at us! Hahaa finally it's over, everything has back to its right place.

It was another average but hot afternoon.

this is how my brother and I communicate :P

Priscilla is one of a few seniors that im still close with :) she's jotting down the notes or whatsoever which she supposed to have written during her classes. hahaaa

Priscilla using Kukumalu pencil box leh! How cute! xD

Pris is eager for the CS notes from my brother. she looks like a kid waiting for mama's ice-cream isn't it? xD

I always end up wordless in the end of my post. Why ah?

Oh yeah! did I mention I got chosen to be student reporter? Hahaaa. It was a delighting news for me but what makes me happier is, my mom allows me to participate the training camp! My protective mom was kind of disagree my decision to become a student reporter before passing up the application form. hahaa! but see! belum try belum tau :P now everything works out! (it actually rhymes huh?) woohooo!

I'm starving. Off for dinner. Toodles! :D

PS: I'm worried because I know you well.

9/12/2010

7.04pm

reminder of mistakes

2010-12-04T23:19:00.000-08:00

I made two atrocious mistakes in two months time.

First, I gave out opinions as if I was an expert. Second, I spilled out things that I should not have done so. and I mess up everything now. Screwed up.

Don't you think relation among people is, so vulnerable? It could be just broken due to a word, a gesture, or even only an expression. And sadly, once a relation is broken, even if it's healed, a scar is left there. You can still feel the pain after months, years, or forever. The scar will always remind you of the pain. Argh. Something very minor that you think it means nothing, it might mean a lot to somebody else. I'm sorry for everything. I've hurt so many people's feelings. I got no idea what to do anymore other than apologizing. I'm sorry.

SOH YEE LING, what do you want? want to be thanked because you've made a great deal? you want to act like a great person? Who do you think you are? Damn you SOH YEE LING!

Hurting my friend, hurting my mom. These are my unforgivable mistakes in my teenage life, and I'm gonna keep them in my mind till I grow up and grow old. Lesson learnt: think think think and think before you say something.Words you say can mean nothing to yourself, but can be hurtful or offending to somebody else! SOH YEE LING take note!

I never had such strong feeling that I actually wanted to fly back to the past, preventing myself from making such mistakes :( I kept asking myself, why did I say so? Why? yet life goes on. you can't just live in the past, stuck at your own mistakes! learn from your mistake, and make sure don't repeat it! and after all, I'm sorry :)

its the night. 2 of December 2010. I'm sorry mom and er jie.

and I'm sorry, Vivian.

The sun still rises, the wind still blow, life goes on.

3:24pm

7/12/2010

2010-12-03T02:31:00.000-08:00

对，是我的错。

人一旦太幸福，会忘了原来自己，已经很幸福了。未能融入你的身份，去体谅您的辛劳，是我的无知。未曾设身处地为你着想，去了解您的付出，是我的自私。我的出发点是想去填补您和姐之间的漏洞，是那种与日俱深的漏洞，但我却抹杀了你之前所作出的努力和贡献。对不起，真的很对不起。

这是我前所未有的恐惧。

恐惧，恐惧我从此断送一家人的和睦。

恐惧，恐惧我从此留下一个无法磨灭的伤疤在母亲身上。

而这一切，就只因为我冲动，无知，没经大脑的话！

我从没如此害怕地要去面对一件事的后果，那种害怕，是我很想很想逃避的。我没把握能将我闯出来的祸填补回去。祸从口出。母亲与孩子形同陌路，那种感觉，就好像死了更好过。 “对不起”似乎已不代表什么了。我该怎么办？

死了算了？哈哈

Recluse is blogging

2010-11-23T08:16:00.000-08:00

Hahaaa. tired though, i feel indeed healthy now. sorry i have to repeat and repeat how much I love to exercise especially dancing because i really do love the sweat coming out from my pores, skin damp with perspiration. and active body cells they are dancing as well. hahahaa. it's even awesome if you can eat some fruits and take a hot bath afterward!

Hahahaa. im simply happy right now :) by the way, i've deactivated my facebook account. you won't be seeing an Eliz Soh in your friend list now. among the reasons they provided, i picked this is temporary, i will be back. hahahaa well, am actually trying to get out of living in virtual life, to live in only one social life, the REAL one. getting rid of facebook-ing habit is easy, but not for blogging. hahaaa because i have to and need to crap and most importantly, i somehow feel much secure here :)

hahaaa. and it was my mom's 46th birthday.
brother made a little surprise for her which.. did not work out :/ he made a video with our pictures of our trips to Thailand, Sabah etc and ended it with sister, his and my wishes to her. Us with hilarious expressions hahaaa. we had quite a number of trips almost every year heee. and in this picture we're at Hindu Glass temple in Johor, one-day trip. Gahhhh. it's suckish place. hahaa but we had fun anyway :D

and this was how she reacted when watching the video. hahaaa smiley face :D yeeepeee!

if my parents they were smiling in this picture, it would be perfect for me :D ahh but without ah gor ;/

another picture that i like because ah ba ah ma look alike.
hahaa you know what? im watching a hongkong drama every move you make that really interest me. hahaa according to one of the episode, they said a couple will slowly imitate their partner's expressions and actions as time passes by. and eventually, they 'look alike'. this is what we usually call fu qi xiang in mandarin hahaa.

i wanted to yam sheng too :D yaaaaammmmmmmm sheeeennnnnggggggggg people! hahaaa

hahaha lovely picture <3

YongChien and Winne :D I like jie jie. LOL!
now one more person to sayang and guide me! <3

as usual. they planned to go Luna Bar!
"youngsters nowadays indeed know how to enjoy life, aiyo" the elders always say. hahaaa. i personally agree xD

and our pictures! haahaaa i know i look old but my sis looks gorgeous especially with her hair curled! hahaaa

and of coarse! my overmatured camwhore look :D hahaaaa

well guess you still remember it :P hahaa scary-looking tiger cat! hahaaa i like this name xD

learning to be a professional shampoo girl isn't as easy as i imagined. hahaaa. basically my daily routine is yoga or dance, reading newspaper and books or magazines, and rotting at saloon. holiday is absolutely boring, you know that. i don't wanna have so much outings as i need to save up for shopping. my very own pocket money is reducing rapidly! hahaaa. i don't wanna get a job to tie up my time. other than that, i do think that this is not the age we should be working. You takut no chance to work when you're grown up? yeah la yeah la mom. hahaaaa.

organic food taste great! :D you will never feel fatty even after taking plates of them. hahaaaa.

being healthy leads to a happy life! trust me! this is true! hahaaa

Vanity is the spring of unhappiness. Balance it.

Cheers! :D

24/11/2010

12:22am

2010-11-23T01:38:00.000-08:00

Will update soon people! :P street jazz class later wooohooo! :D

2010-11-15T06:48:00.000-08:00

原来结局是，形同陌路。

Dancing in front of two guys

2010-11-14T07:01:00.000-08:00

happy constipation? hahaaaa

13/11/2010

Oh my gosh.

I felt pretty steady before today as if it was no big deal. But, it is a BIG DEAL!
It decides how am I gonna spend my entire form4 school life, or even gives a thrilling turning point of my life being a human. Ding! Glong Glong! Woah! Okay I just wanna stress how important the day was hahaa xD

My dad was the driver of the day, you know, the dearest best driver <3
We went all the way from Cheras, spent around 1 hour plus due to a little traffic jam, to Sin Chew Daily office, Petaling Jaya. Well you're guessing it, I'm having an interview, as a student reporter, or cadet of reporter. Sounds cool eh? the R-E-P-O-R-T-E-R. Hahaa. As a very Chinesey student like me, being a student reporter is an honor. It is something to be proud of :D

They call themselves as 'Xue Ji', 学记♥

and as senior 'Xue Ji' , we call them as 'Xue jie'(for girl) and 'Xue zhang' (for guy).

Zhi Wei is Xue jie :)

Okay let's back to the story hahaa.
I went there with my two good-girl friends. In my dictionary, good-girl friends means the very hardworking type, the ones who would spend time to study rather than hanging out type of friends. hahaa alright too much information. So we were in our casual but tidy look. Yet surprisingly almost everyone who went there for the same purpose, they wore in formal school look! We were like OMG what went wrong?

"Don't worry, they wouldn't kick us back to home just because of our attire."

One of us said.

We gonna be the most outstanding and awesome ones of the day woohoo

I thought inside, laughing.

Yen Ping! :D and my sampat teeth hahaa

Every senior xue ji was pretty nice and friendly, except one.

I don't remember your name but roar, watch out. I remember your leng lui face, colour of your contact lens, your straight soft hair, your white shining teeth hahahaa. I macam complimenting her eh? -.- hmm what else that worth to jot down in this page of diary? Oh yeah, the part when I had hyperactive butterflies in my stomach! :O

Hui Shen :)

"Whose turn?"

I mustered all my courage to stand up!

The room was small - it fits four chairs and a round table. One smiling faced youngster and one serious-looking faced middle-aged guy. The temperature was ice-cold. I was asked to self-intorduced within one minute, without they interrupted me. I stammered, you know, this was my first interview ever. My heart was like bouncing out of my chest, I could feel cold sweat racing out of my pores. Aduh. It killed :/ I think it just lasted for a few seconds, I'd already out of words :X

"So you like to dance? Can you perform a little in front of us?"

I was totally with :O face at that moment Crazy fellas -.- Student reporter need to dance?! Hahaa. I usually dance in front of my friends(even though they macam ignore me most of the time hahaa) so yeah.. I managed to stand up and came out with some dance moves. Awkward! They ended up giggling at me wth. Where was my applause? HAHAAA.

I don't know when the result is out but I gotta read Sin Chew start from next Wednesday. Wish me luck okay? Heee. Because if I really get to become xueji, I will have so many camps that I can join! Woohahaa. And more freedom I can gain from my mom :P

met up long-lost friend :D

Heee! toodles! <3

11:06pm

14/11/2010

(This is me)

2010-11-10T02:53:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna drown you with all of my pictures!

I mean it seriously!

while everyone is calling me as Auntie Soh (which I don't mind but like it) due to my curly short hair, I love it because I think it suits me the best! hahahaa

If I could, I would transform myself into someone else (which I could back to the original me later on -.-) who lives a totally different type of lifestyle as mine. For examples, the lifestyle of

a vain teenage girl who can go shopping without looking at price tags
Sultan
Prime Minister
crippled person
a complete uneducated person
Lady Gaga

Hahahaa I've run out of ideas but I know, the list will never end.
So I can put myself into their shoes, I can feel how feel they feel deep inside, but would not just look at the surface. I once read an article which said that, "no matter how plain the lifestyle of a person is, his or her life can still be written into books.."

Because everyone is UNIQUE，

in his or her own way.

No one can be replaced by anyone.We are born to create our own stories ( or perhaps fairy tales :P), to leave memories to our grandchildren, great grandchildren, great great grandchildren, great great great grandchildren alright I'm suffocating LOL. Hahaha. And thanks Bao, while writing this post just remind me of you. hahaaa :D

" you will look pretty when you're confident with yourself "

I don't remember who said it but I wish I can really do it!

Hahaha craps.

I just love to talk non-stop lately, especially with Ong Wan Yi. Well, I should say its argument more than talking hahaa. I find that I much prefer talking face to face with people in real world instead of in virtual world. That makes a big difference. Don't tell me that the emoticons can work efficiently because they don't work perfectly on me. Hahaa. It's fun and challenging if you can read people's mind through face expressions. Aya! I talk craps again. hahaaaa

macam very yeng je LOL

the top belongs to my sister, which is way too big for me.

hahaaa so she clipped it to make it has curve on me.

Vivian! I'm wearing the earrings you gave me! xD

curly curly short hair. hahahaa I really love you :P

I don't think I can do this arching for awhile :(

and split :/ 'cause I sort of hurt my waist? or backbone? no enough warm up for dance! :/

hahaaaaa. I still have pictures. But.. you wouldn't wanna see anymore coz I'm in the same outfit. hahaaa. alright gotta go :) need to text with Vivian now hahaaa.

PS: When I lack confidence, I work hard to build it. When I think Im confident enough, I'm worried that I might get over-confident. Aduh. It's hard to maintain it in balance. Any idea? hahaha

7:55pm

10/11/10

Baby you're a firework

2010-11-06T01:58:00.000-07:00

You don't have to feel like a waste of space. You're original, cannot be replaced.
If you only knew what the future holds After a hurricane comes a rainbow..

the sampat face as usual :P

Already a number of my friends fall sick lately - due to unpredictable weather, pollutions and inadequate rest or whatever reason. Now even myself is in the list. Yeah am feeling better after simply shaking body following the beat of songs "Like a G6" and "Toy Soldier". At least the perspiration has cut down the uneasiness of feeling sick, and I feel more cheerful now.

Yet I feel so useless at this moment.
My friends are feeling down but I could help nothing. I'm afraid of saying things to both of them as I might hurt them even further. So I choose to keep quiet :/ Ahhhh Vivian and CheeRen, stay strong. I hope you guys can hear this. I believe the rainbow will appear soon, real soon for you guys. Stay to have faith and be positive. :)

When we're delighted with our country development as we have higher quality of lifestyle, we wish we can go backwards, stay close with nature.

When we are running too fast, we wish life is slower-paced.

When we know more, we wish we can know less.

When our life gets complicated, we wish it can be simpler.

Even a 9-year-old little girl committed suicide,

because of overloaded homework.

When I was as this age, I don't think I even know what does 'suicide' really mean. Where has the innocence of a child gone? Hassles which needed to be solved in our life will increase as our age increases. I know, this is something called growth.

When life is falling down, why don't we sit back, and picture how gigantic the universe is, how tiny we human beings are. If the predication of 2012 is the end of the world does come true, are your problems now are problems? If you think you can accept life and death as something you must go through, why don't you see downfalls as memorable chapters of your life? It is normal to fall, it is normal to fail in our life.

My sister said, "ehhh everyone knows these principles of life, but not everyone can practice them." Yes, she is right. But we people need to be often reminded. I often remind myself, that is why I repeat and repeat all this over and over again in my posts. I wish my words can at least make your mind clearer, can at least make you take a break to think. Hahaaa, good luck!

The world is just awesome!

Eliz

6/11/10

5:03pm

Happy could be her name

2010-11-06T00:12:00.000-07:00

I'm happy due to my friends' cheerfulness or, my friends are happy due to my cheerfulness?
My answer is, it works in both ways :)

An emotional friend will cool down the atmosphere of the room, brings up the upset mood to others. A cheerful friend will heat up the atmosphere of the room, spreading happy mood to others. What I'm always trying to do is, not to be self-centered. If I'm unhappy, at least smile, for not to influence the mood of the rest, this is especially has to be taken note during a party. PARTY :D

best Halloween look :P

And there is a girl, a noisy one, a sticky one, a hyperactive one. She seems to have energy with no limitation. When she smiles, she smiles the sweetest. When she laughs, she laughs the loudest. When she screams, she screams the highest pitch that might burst your eardrum. But you still love her, because she's so sweet, so cute, so sincere, so innocent.

SHE IS DENICE LAI VIN YAN! :D

our dao gei days hahaaa. 2009.

Hahaaa. I just got to know your phone was spoiled 2 days ago so that means my message didn't get through. So yeah, I'm here again to wish you a belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY! May all your wishes come true! You're amazing in the way you are, so stick to be who you are now :) Don't change. Stay pretty, healthy and happy!

belated happy birthday wish :)

Loves <3

Say Hello to confidence!

2010-10-29T06:34:00.000-07:00

Ways to build confidence

Laugh out loud
Learn to look into people's eyes
Increase your speed of walking by 25%, walk upright
speak out in front of people
sit at front seat
compliment yourself (means to be perasan! :P)
seek the good point of your personalities
be passionate and agree to your work
look at yourself in the mirror more often, find the favourite and most satisfied part of your body
take part in gathering or outings, take chances to make new friends, widen the ranges of friends

I got these from a Chinese magazine. Which one are you practicing now? I only kena five out of ten :/

like a rat LOL

I was actually self-doubting my capabilities.

I thought I've built up my confidence, not until I realized that I do sometimes avoid meeting people's eyes and avoid talking to somebody. That is a bizarre feeling :/ It's not like I'm afraid of something.. You know what? I do not even dare to order a delivery of Domino's pizza through phone call even though I really really really have the urge to eat a pizza at the moment. I would just ask anyone else to do so but not myself. The lack of confidence causes me to be so?

Apologies for readers as I'm not blogging about Sabah trip :) still seeking the mood.
I think I'm jotting down one of the transitions of my growth process. I'm still working hard on building my confidence. I believe building up confidence needs a lifetime.We need to be confident in ourselves if we wish to succeed in life. Have you ever heard of the "Law of attraction"? If not, read The Secret. It has English and Mandarin version, and a notebook version? Hahaa. I strongly believe in this principle :)

Anyway, thanks Vivian for your very loooong message! hahaaa

I will update as soon as I get into the mood! :D

Pulau Sapi @ Sabah

2010-10-17T04:03:00.000-07:00

Da lang, Da lang,

Da lang da lang da lang da lang da lang..

My mood is in ease :D

It's like everything is running smooth, though I have to school and the school is so much more boring than its before PMR. PMR has over, now school teachers are focusing on final papers and SPM. Form3 students are being dumped and we're basically wasting time, chit-chatting in school. Yet time just passes like that.

Frankly, I prefer exams.

Hey, at least I have something to work hard for instead of being rotten now. I just can't live without purpose, like study. Because once I slow down, I'm slow and once I get lazy, I'm lazy. hahhaa. Anyhow, I will just take it as a break and soon, perhaps I'm gonna help out my sister at her saloon. Now possibility of getting another part-time job to gain new experience seems low. well, almost none :(

Hahhaaa. I'm so gonna blog about my trip to Sabah! Aww! you miss my pictures, don't you? :D

Sabah, Sabah ♥

I was kind of surprised that the flight from Kuala Lumpur to Kota Kinabalu took us about 1 and a half hour, which was quite a long journey for me. It's Hari Raya Aidilfitri holiday, we spent our holidays in Sabah! This is my very first time to travel in Sabah, with much pleasure :) Traveling locally gave me a kind of intimate feeling, especially with my family :D

Before boarding the ship or boat for Pulau Sapi!

One of the most memorable and interesting places of my trip was here! Pulau Sapi!

There are many other islands in Sabah for examples like Pulau Sipadan and Pulan Manukan. But the tour guide we followed (we asked for a tour guide at the hotel), recommended us to Pulau Sapi. All hotels and resorts were fully booked on those islands, whoa? Sabah islands is indeed an ideal place for vacation yeah? Woots

wow I love this picture, mommy! I'm gonna include this in the album :P

Beach boy!

You just gonna love here!

According to what I have found out on website, Pulau Sapi is renowned because of its clean white sand, crystal clear water and coral reefs, which makes it ideal for swimming, snorkeling and diving. These are all true I assure you! :D Despite the island has been developed into one of those tourists attraction, it's good to see that the place is still being well-preserved. You will just go ewww when you get to see the beach in Kuantan :( The so-called sand is kinda black and yellowish like mud :O Ishhh

Pulau Sapi is the nicest beach I've been thus far! But I know there are even nicer beaches out there :D Pulau Redang, when can I visit you?

I mean, don't leave any rubbish behind but only your footprints :)

I love this Karate kid! hahahaa

Here come some fun and scream-out-loud activities!

Parasailing

We're in the sky!

I know it's one of those non-environmental friendly motorised sports but gahhh, if I didn't go for it I'm gonna regret :( I had so much fun! Felt the salty wind sweeping by my face, flying up high in the sky and watching the panorama beneath us, what I did was just screaming in amazement! If you intend to get wet, you can tell the beach boys : nak kena air, they will do this to you..

Like this! hahahaa.

My body had literally turned to the other way round when we reached the seawater. The frictional force was too strong for me -.- I drank quite plenty of seawater 'cause I shouted too much hahaa

Flyfish

Ahh girls, I would advise you not to play this as it kills lots of energy. Unless you're playing gym or good at arm wrestling hahaa, or else you won't be able to hold the handle for long without feeling your arm numb after this :/ for guys who always do exercise, it will be a handy work.

Scary :O

Because I fell into the ocean as I didn't have enough strength to hold the handle when it came to a change of direction. You know why they called it as Flyfish? The whole thing flied upright like a flying flyfish or whatsoever when the boat sped up! *Blash!* I was in the ocean! I was so frightened! Because up until today I still don't know how to swim! I felt like dying! :/

( I recalled I shouldn't be alive of Discovery channel which feared me even further -.-)

Look at my tortured face -.-

but my brother felt nothing. He said he purposely fell into the sea when the activity almost came to an end -.-

I fell twice.

the first time I felt sucks. the second time I was sunbathing. hahaaa! got life jacket mah! :D

Back to the beach

We had BBQ lunch here. The little crabs tasted great but I didn't eat much due to my complete exhaustion. Was cursing the Flyfish activity anyway hahaaa. Literally forcing my arm to work :/

Yong Chien was looking for the shapes of I Love You dead corals for her girlfriend during snorkeling hahaaa

Woooohoooo!

awwww I love this! cannot forget the sampat face xD

Back to main land

OMG the mesmerizing sunrise and sunset. Credit to James :D

Her Profile

2010-10-15T02:21:00.000-07:00

Ni Hao, readers! :) I'm Eliz Soh!

Well, the blog you are going to read right now, it is neither one of those inspiring or awesome blogs that will make you WOW in the end of the posts. But yeah, it's something about a peculiar teenage girl who has a strong passion towards life heee.

If you wonder, I started blogging 2 years ago for the sake to become popular and famous. Apparently, I failed. hahaaa. Sometimes I would just become lost and I would asked myself, Why am I spending so much time on blogging? I didn't know why, 2 years ago when I was only 13, I was so eager for fame. All the effort I used to put in to get noticed and popularity was like, so tiring. Trying to do things to impress people, definitely bored me.

So one day, I decided to change my aim for blogging.

Now I blog, I simply want to keep my blog as a diary. I blog from my heart. I wish one day when I'm about.. 50, I will still be able to read my blog, and laugh at what I've written for the past. Hahaha. By reading my blog, you will not get any latest news of fashion or something else, yet I wish you can feel my passion towards life through my words :)

So, how much do you know about me?

Noisy

I'm noisy. But don't worry, I know when it's the appropriate time to be noisy, often it's the time hanging out with my friends. Also, when I'm with my close friends I would just act like a hyperactive girl, making all those freaky actions or weird sounds. And once I start, sorry, it's hard for me to stop

Optimistic

Most of the time. I believe obstacles makes our lives to be more unique and interesting.We just cannot make everything to be flawless. I always try to see things from different perspectives and see the bright, positive sides. So, smile :) Happiness is within us and it just depends on how we see things.

Emotional
It's shame to say that I'm a crybaby although physically I may look tough-.- Mostly, emotions bring me down when it comes to family, friends and self-esteem etc. Luckily, tears can always heal my wounds :) I'm kind of sensitive, so when you want to criticize me, please, check on my mood or else Imma cry in front of you :O hahaa.

There are so many characters of mine which are yet to be found out in my life.
Anyhow, I will just begin to firm who I am from now on and years after years, I believe I can discover more about myself. I don't need to be anyone else to please people. But I will, open my ears to people's criticism and improve myself, from time to time. Wish me good luck to be a better person in life yeah? :)

Opps, I'm turning 16 :D

Readers, enjoy reading my blog!

State of mind

2010-10-07T08:29:00.000-07:00

I'm going ..

to recycle all my used form3 books.
to dump the Rosli Dhobi, Suruhanjaya Reid, Tun H.S Lee and bla bla from my stuffy memory.
for part-time work
to sleep well tonight, tomorrow night and tomorrow's tomorrow night(does such a word exist?)

and I'm going to shout Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

real SOON. real SOON. real SOON.

PS I wish one day I can study abroad,

independently staying in an unfamiliar country, and explore.The world is awesome :)

抛物线

2010-09-28T00:34:00.000-07:00

   我確實說　我這樣說　我不在乎結果
   我對你說　我有把握　成功例子好多
   人們虛假又造作　總愛得不溫不火
   我們用真心就不會有差錯
   我沒想過   我會難過　你竟然離開我

愛沿著　拋物線

離幸福　總降落得差一點

流著血心跳卻不曾被心痛消滅

真真切切

青春的　拋物線

把未來　始於相遇的地點

至高後才了解

世上月圓月缺只是錯覺

我好想說　我只想說　我不要這後果
可是你說　相對來說　走開是種解脫
當初親密的動作　變成當下的閃躲
感情的過程出了什麼差錯
我沒想過我會難過　你終於離開我

至高後才了解　世上月圓月缺只是錯覺

Moments with the Love ones :)

2010-09-14T21:44:00.000-07:00

Had been into an absolute holiday mood that I almost left my study behind. and wth? 19 days to go for PMR? Yeah. I didn't realize the clock was ticking when I was having so much fun with my dearest family.

I've missed out lots of outings and parties of my friends as well.
Am trying to catch up with my friends' latest updates but it kills lots my time.. so I'd rather be outdated for a few weeks. Okay? Booo! :D

I should seriously be studying now!

The best counselor of mine :) loves.

but before that, let me blog bout the day at Sunway Lagoon!

So here was a day I spent with my sister, brother and Leong Foon. Sister's boyfriend, Leong Foon, is good at planning outings for our family. Each time when he and my sister are planning for an outing, they will consider of me, brother and my parents. You know, I would like him to be my brother-in-law in the future. hahhaa. Because you see, he loves my family like how he loves my sister. He treats my family like his family. It's like, he loves my sister wholly, including her life and her family. For sure, my parents, likes him too :)

wooohoo sister was trying bikini while we having fun taking photos!

That makes me think, a relationship will last long only when it's agreed by your family at first.
Family is always like a supporter of your life. Especially parents, they always want us to be living in a blissful life. They do things for our own good. They will never want us to be in hot water. So, when they give you advice, heed it. I used to be.. well, almost, ALMOST rebellious for an unworthy guy, but fortunately I didn't get to be. hahaaa. and now, ding! I see it. He's after another girl. Weeee :D

Do not ever trust a guy when he says he will wait, for you.

Let time to prove it.

HAHAA. This is not referring to myself. Just WARN myself in the future, and you :P Oh hey! out of topic! hahaaa

Gor: 'ish. My face look so big.'

Me: 'Gor, lower your face and take photo from a higher angle, then you won't look so chubby.'

Gor: 'okay'

*ding!* :D hahhahaa

We are hot and cold siblings. Duh.

We are the sampat ones :D rock the carpark!

we are sampat + cute family! xD now rock the elevator!

Buying tickets!

It was a day before Hari Merdeka but it was crowded. Lots of ang mo HAAHA.

fooling around the mascot hahaha. we're so excited!

The real mascot was shy :D jajajaa!

I wonder is he feeling sweaty? LOL

Having a boyfriend is like having an 'ah sei'. hahaha Maria~~

sayang orang asli and the horse!

hahaa omg makes me think of the hot guys in Sabah again! LOL

a best place in Sunway Lagoon for us to take photo. hahaa

go for games! ishh I look rude :( was trying to act cool hahaa

we played this 360 pirate ship! was thrilling! must try when you're still young. or else, you will regret! :D awwww. I wish to bungee jump ONCE for my life. though I'm not sure whether am I daring enough or not xD

we are not acting! :X

Gor is in a relationship now. Do bring girlfriend back our home more lah :P hahaa

Met dao fu bok Bernard Hiew at Sunway Pyramid! yeah!

after missing the chance having to take photo with him in my primary school, now I got it! woohooo!

That's all for today :) I seriously need to study now.

Leave comment to scold me if I'm here updating again. hahaa. I don't wanna break my own promise over again. LOL

Bye! will try to create a new look for my blog after PMR! :) heee!

Eliz

15/9/10

12:50pm

Sabah, part of Malaysia, part of my home

2010-09-13T08:53:00.000-07:00

I'm back from Sabah! :D

Gained weights, received a few lovely kisses from mosquitoes, and had bruises on my legs (as usual),

ah, what a 'productive' trip! :D

Staying in Kota Kinabalu for 3 days, I found most of the Sabahnians speak Bahasa Malaysia and Mandarin. For most of the Chinese, they speak fluent and standard Mandarin. I found one thing very interesting in Sabah is, Chinese they look like Malay, Malay they look like Chinese. Practically you can't distinguish their races by looking at their skin colours or the way they dress.

I don't know why I've used to point people's races out and category them into groups that I draw out in my mind. Hmm.. Not good :( The impression I got from this trip, Sabahnians live without saying ah you're Malay you cannot do this or that with me or you're Chinese you cannot enter here and blabla. For what I can see in a restaurant, Malays work together with Chinese.

They live under the same roof.

I expected we Malaysians, despite of different races and culture, can respect each other and live peacefully in this country. Yet lately a number of news on races issues do seriously let me down. While staying in Sabah, makes me feel better. I could see the principle of 1Malaysia goes on in Sabahnians. Well, although Malaysia seems sucks in some aspects, but we should be appreciative as you can see, we do not face serious natural disasters (touch wood) in our country. Aiyaa, that's already enough. Nothing is perfect right?

hahahaa. Feel like writing an essay here. but you should know the serious side of me xD I'm not sampat all the time heee. Well I'm kind of packing my study mood back after a week of holidays. hahaa. By the way, Imma going to Cheer's birthday party! Vivian! CAMWHORE! xDD

oh my. I have so many photos needed to post up here yet it takes me so much time to upload them. Heck. hmm. I'm thinking... having daily update by each post with a picture followed by some word I wanna say. How is it? LOL. I'm having low battery like my phone now. Got to go. Nights :)

PS: Happy birthday Xin Lin! x) wish all your wishes come true! all the best for PMR too! :D

Eliz

13/9/10

12.00am

It's my cup of tea/coffee/milo!

2010-09-07T02:07:00.000-07:00

I'm talking bout modern jazz.
my friends have been asking me why don't I join belly dance or sexy jazz etc but I always give them this answer:

" aiyaaa I'm so boyish. Belly dance and sexy jazz are way too girlish for me. hahaa"

it was May of 2009. Sister and I :)

I guess we just started to learn dancing for a few months that time.

True. If you know me well you'll find out my character. ahaha.
I used to learn belly dance and I found myself so funny in the mirror dancing those ladylike moves. You know I'm just lack of some.. I would call it as 'feel'? oh yeah its my body. I don't have a nice curve or figure. hahaa. Whereas sexy jazz, high heels? I don't wanna hurt my toes and whatsoever. so its sort of not in my list since the beginning.

The first dancing performance since after kindergarden.
They are Kai Xin and Ying Ying. Both of them have their own styles in dancing.

and I'm pretty much in love with modern jazz now even after learning it for around 2 years? hahaa. Usually I'll lose interest in one thing after I've tried it, or when I think I can already master the particular knowledge or technique. But NOT for modern jazz. Whenever I learn new moves, I receive new challenges. and each time I try to make my moves perfect, sharp and powerful. hahaa. you know when you see yourself so cool in the mirror, you'll like 'woah' at yourself. it absolutely injects energy into me. Then, confidence is gained :D lalala

I'm learning new song Alejandro now after Telephone by Lady Gaga. AGAIN its Gaga.Can't deny that her songs are suitable for modern jazz. hmm yeah. Here are some pictures of us dancing :D

our sporty hotness :D

our sexy backs :P

the only one in white top hahaa

Ending pose babe!

I seem to have boobs but its just angle problem -.- HAHAA

Be grateful heee!

2010-09-01T08:36:00.000-07:00

"OPEN MY EYES BIG BIG"

and I know who you are now :)
thanks for giving me such a lesson dear!

Eliz

1/9/10

11:41pm

Skinny one's birthday celebration!

2010-08-31T07:14:00.000-07:00

Was a very simple present that I made within one hour for Ong Yi , a friend who I met on Facebook.

We were schoolmates. I still remember when he first appeared on screen, I only knew him as "Samson's friend". He is a very easy-going person and friendly as well and soon we are closer friends through chatting on facebook. hahaaa. And when I got to see him in real life I was like wth, how come he's so skinny! like as skinny as Ivan.

Ivan, the one who holding coke. He's the skinniest guy I've ever met so far. hahaha

the one who pointing is Ong Yi, next to him is Samson. He's more muscular. hahaa

Though I'm not Ong Yi's close friend but well, I was delighted that he actually invited me to his party. hahaaa it just gives you a very nice feeling when you know there is a friend appreciating you and realizes you existence. especially when you did not expect it. hahaa. and guess what! Ong Yi told me he liked my birthday present! hahaa I got really hyped up when I received his message telling me my present was the most special one among the others :P

that's what my reaction when I didn't know how to pose. hahaa

alright enough being a little kid. hahaaa are some pictures to share.

Yik Jia and I :)

Me and Weikei hahaa :D

Ongyi's sister, Joey :)

Climax of the party :)

me, Ong Yi and Weikei :D huh now then I realized Ong yi and weikei actually look alike? hahaa

I kinda don't like this guy but aiyaa a picture is just fine :)

end this post with my camwhore picture. Coach bag on sale!

if interested you can leave comment in my chatbox. serious! hahaaa

Don't play play!

2010-08-29T04:09:00.000-07:00

Went to watch Phua Chu kang with girlfriends on Friday which made me yawned at the beginning part of the movie and laughed out loud towards the end. Well it wasn't awesome but who cares? just as long as I did the exercise - laughing. hahaaa. You know, nowadays people are way too busy and their mind are too occupied until they even forget how to LAUGH! yeah I know it sounds absurd but hey, think. Why does laughing yoga exist? It's because they don't know how to laugh? NO. Of coarse they know how to laugh. It's because of stress!

So please relax. Breathe :D
Take a deep breath whenever any negative emotions arise. hahaa. I tried and it helped :D

Or, you can take sampat picture and laugh at your own stupidity :D

hahahaa. oh yeah. Imma slowly blog about my school life before the memories fade away. The end of the year is coming real soon and at the same time, it means PMR is getting closer :D YES. I'm getting out from this 'low-class' hell and going to enter another 'high-class' hell. hahaaa. Looking forward to change into a new environment and going to face new challenges. :)

Melissa asked Denice and I to join her group. But you as my friend should know Im sucks in art work hahaa..

It's Pertandingan Media Maklumat. Again, another competition based on art and creativity after sports' day. Well I was kind of surprised when Melissa asked me to join her group as I wasn't close to her. To be more precise, I did not even know her name. hahaaa. Yet thinking that I might get to do with some new stuff like making new friends and learning new knowledge on art work through this competition, I decided to join. Curiosity kills the cat :P LOL.

Vivian, a friend who gives me hope, love and lecture as well :)

as usual Denice couldn't stand to play with my hair but I always gladly to be her 'toy'. wth? hahaa

the 3 inspectors investigating who put my shoe on the gate. LOL

pouring out the water from the bottle for recycling.

The best shot of us!

At Melissa's house.

HAHAA hilarious expression of Vivian! :D

Doing air balloons.

Competition that day. Whole day not in class hahaaa :P

our hard work :) despite we didn't win the first prize but I know everyone of us enjoyed the whole process :D

am going to skip school for Sunway Lagoon tomorrow! hooray! :D

Eliz

29/8/10

07:20pm

'Funny Quote'

2010-08-23T07:26:00.000-07:00

I was googling funny life quotes and guess what I get?

'No matter how bad things get, you got to go on living, even if it kills you.'

Is that funny? NO.
but its so true. I have to overcome all bad feelings no matter what. Life is just a phase I'm going through, and I'll get over it.

I'm still looking for my mood here. For the sake of getting rid all those negative feelings and get prepared for the school tomorrow, I blog. hahaa. yeah I'm alone at home again but well I enjoy it :) Ditched school today and I spent my whole morning in KLIA with my sister. And photo-shooting! LOL. will blog about it soon :D

Oh yeah. Exam was fine. For now, according to paparazzi Adeline, I already got A's for a few subjects, which is.. :D and yeah Adeline, don't be upset for your results okay? I don't know what are you feelings since I didn't meet your for err 3 days :( I kind of miss school and my gang. HAHAA. Movies during holidays kay girls! I want Phua Chu Kang badly T.T

It was a sunny and lively Sunday.

Adeline, Wanyi and I were sort of addicted to ping pong since after the competitions among houses in school, therefore we gathered at school on Sunday to relieve our addiction. HAHAA. well at first our plan was playing ping pong at a small house somewhere located at Section 7. However the condition of tennis table was disappointing. oh yeah, did I mention Chee Ren that boy gang? They reached the small house after practicing basketball in school. We changed our mind to play ping pong back in school.

woohoooo!
I cycled on Chee Ren's bicycle and arrived school shouting 'woohoo!', ignoring guard's suspicious looking. HAHAA. you know the feeling of cycling in deserted school was like so awesome and I totally shook off all my exam tension at that moment. Exercising is seriously needed to keep our mind fresh and healthy. Much better than spending time in front of the screen which always makes people go emotional right? :D

See. Statement was proved. Adeline's bright smile :D

Another evidence :P

Where was Adeline? hahaa No idea. but I bet you're wondering who's the long-hair girl in red shirt? She's Ong Wan Yi. lalalaaa :P whack me lah whack me lah :D

We did this a month ago.
How time flies, like what I always say. hahaa. Good. We are getting near out of the hell. Quick! PMR please over as soon as possible! We can have outings outings and outings! :D and Wanyi, our plan. The visit ah :)

Nights :D

Eliz

23/8/10

10:31pm

Madness?

2010-08-23T05:30:00.000-07:00

When you feel lonely in the world you disagree of,

request a warm and tight hug from your dearest family :)

Still looking for herself.

Will be back in place after some time.

I overcome the loneliness in the darkest night without you.

So what? :P

Kisssses :D

不是我，不是我。

2010-08-21T03:19:00.000-07:00

我开始被身边的声音,污染了自己。

难道成长的过程就是，那么难熬？
我无法接受现在的自己。当我正积极地寻找着真正的自己时，却发现，我原来什么都不是。我在干嘛？我是谁？我不是在为自己而活吗？为什么现在的我，就好像是在被人，牵着鼻子走。

小时候的我，天不怕地不怕。有事情发生时，身边总有许许多多的人搀扶。不开心时，哭一哭，让眼泪洗涤心中的难受，即时雨过天晴。但现在什么都不是了，眼泪已经不能解决问题。因为你开始长大了。你需要学习独立去面对许多事情。难道哭，事情就会因你而改变？不会。

醒醒吧，仪琳。事实是残酷的。
无论你多么难受，你依然是要抬头面对这个世界。世界还没到末日呢仪琳，等着瞧。现在只是一起初的阶段，路途还很遥远，还很漫长。

Rant. which you shouldn't read

2010-08-21T03:10:00.000-07:00

I don't wanna hold back my feelings anymore, in the place which supposed to mine, mine.
I wanna blog bout the feelings that I'm feeling in the deep core of my heart, and that's all.

I hate this pretentious society. I hate that so-called social skills. I hate the people who smile to you when she needs your help, ignore you when you seem useless to them. I wanna act like I don't care yet somehow I can't seem to be. Am I getting immune to it? but this is life. LIFE? what the fug.

I want my salty tears to bring the hatred away. Seriously.
I wanna do things that I did not dare to do in the past. But I tell myself, I've grown up. I'm no longer a little kid. I have to say things I should say, not things I wanna say. Why? because people will blacklist your name in their mind when you've done something offending or wrong or things against their feelings.

And I chicken out again.

Why should I do things to please everyone! why am I shaping myself as such a girl that.. its not me!Why am I trying to be sophisticated? I have so many, so many things to rant over here. Yet I'm so timid now! I cannot do things on impulse! I would not let the emotions to conquer me! Fug off!

Chill.

Eliz

21/8/10

6:15pm

Happy Ramadan!

2010-08-13T02:32:00.000-07:00

Syafika and I :)

HAH! dah lama tak online! bulan puasa dah sampai!

Happy Ramadan! :)

Okay enough. I can't think of other BM words to write. sucks in BM hahaha. I have quite of number of Malay friends yet I'm not really close to them due to my poor language. hmmm.. most of the time is that I don't know how to start a conversation with them. But well, as what Bao said, we can be expressed by body language, smile and any other ways. I think what's important is the heart right? :)

Opps. PMR trial exams are on next week! surprisingly I'm not feeling stressed out like how I used to be. Thanks to yoga I guess? Hee! :D

Thanks to Vivian who keeps reminding and motivating me all the way :)

PS: Time flies, people change. Towards the bad and also the good side. Cheers :D

13/8/10

5:35pm

Eliz.

Mental tiredness, but still gotta smile through life :)

2010-07-30T09:07:00.000-07:00

I can't wait for the exams to over!

The Modern Jazz Gang :D

I feel like I'm a walking zombie right now.

I'm trying to be cheerful everyday, bring joy and spread the smile to people around me, to me, myself, and I. As I believe when I look happy, my mind would be influenced too. Yet I feel a little bit exhausted, mentally. Dancing already could hardly fit the empty part of my heart, it can help raise my confidence, but I can't regain the mental energy.

hahaha. it's not that scary and negative lah. I'm still the cheerful and hyper-active girl as you see in school hahaa. That kind of stuff invade my mind only when I'm alone when I don't feel appreciated and important. What the hell. I know, life has ups and downs. It's a stages of my life. Live life to the fullest Yee Ling :) This is your life! Cherish it. instead of waiting for people to appreciate you, why don't you make the first move? :)

The one who inspired me- Minyi Yeow.

Makes me realized I used to push all the problems to myself which were not even existed. Human beings are so tiny, I shouldn't magnify the so-called problems. :) Contribute to the community. Age doesn't matter at all. That's the inspiration she gave me yet I haven't done anything for it :/

Roarrr :D

Unprepared

2010-07-17T21:08:00.000-07:00

for PMR.
Timetable is currently fully packed with study study and study.
I feel bad for not able to facebook and read blogs for days which make me so OUTDATED. Gah. But well, it will not last long- until PMR is over. so yeah!

I'M OFFICIALLY TELLING YOU

I WOULD NOT UPDATE MY BLOG WHEN PMR HASN'T OVER YET!

Cheers! :D

I'm gonna update lots of posts after PMR!

Media Maklumat competition
Performance in Serdang
Plans for holidays - even more in details :)
Thailand trip - hahaa which happened months ago :P
perhaps trip to Sunway Lagoon?

and many many more! :DD

PS: Come back here after 12 of October :) Loves!
PSS: Time flies! going to start clothes hunting for CNY! :P

18/7/10

12:13pm

Eliz♥

Hey Soul Sister!

2010-07-09T03:51:00.000-07:00

sis, Yong Chien and I went for makan at Kajang with sis's bf

The clock is ticking.

It's weekly update for my blog :)
Trial exams are getting closer. PMR is getting closer. The tension and mood in my class is getting stronger like telling me :

Don't slow down Yee Ling! Keep moving!

:D yes yes. I'm moving. Non-stop moving. especially the two girls who sit behind me. One get first in midterm. another in top 10. WALAO.
I think I gotta miss out lots of hang outs or trips due to exams :( but its alright lah. Few more months to go only mah! HAHAA. hope my holiday plans would work out and these are my plans

get a job to earn shopping money
go for a camp
help out in planning a Chinese camp
voluntary job
hang out with my gang
gathering with my old schoolmates!
window shopping with Wanyi and Vivian
photoshoot (if Yong Chien wants to!)

hahaa. I think I still have other plans.. oh yeah! learn cooking! at least maggi mee! Grr. I want to be a good wife and girlfriend in the future kay HAHAA. ish. been laughed by my friends especially CheeRen who always MAKE ANNOUNCEMENT to everyone when talking about cooking. `o`

<< Don't argue yourself>>

wooohoo. I've picked up reading habit since secondary school. hee. this is one of my favourite books. teach me how to overcome problems in life with an optimistic mind:)

<> ini lagi awesome! HAHA. although I don't seem to practising it right now :X but at least I get the concept. heee!

Though I love my current life pretty much but well.. Sometimes I do hate myself.

Because...

I GET JEALOUS EASILY.

What the heck.

She, is one of my closest and true friends. I treat her like my best friend. but why I should get jealous? Shouldn't I be happy when she's happy? Shouldn't I be glad to have a lovable and popular friend like her? Shouldn't I be proud to know that she's so loved by every teacher?

and why am I jealous?

So that means you'll be delighted when seeing people cry and being down lah, Yee Ling? Insane.

You will not get any true friends if you keep being like this, Yee Ling. Don't be silly okay? She's always there for you when you need her. She never be stingy to share things with you. She's caring for you. She always wants you to be good, in study, in dealing with people, everything. and most importantly, she trusts me, she treats me like her true friend.

Cherish and appreciate please, Soh Yee Ling?

And SHE, is Adeline. Don't be surprised.

I cannot lie to myself that I'm not being jealous, Deline :( I'm always being true to my feelings. You're so great, too great. I'm always having low self-esteem when I'm with you. Guess that's why I felt moody today? :( GAH. I couldn't get myself out of that jealousy. What's wrong with me? The feeling I'm feeling right now.. SORRY :X I don't know why lah. I don't have the guts to tell you all my feelings but.. blogging :S

I think you're shocked when reading this Deline? HAHAA. Don't worry. you know I'm born weird like that. having mental problem ahhaa. at the end of this post I'll free from that strange feeling :)

You gave my life direction,

a game shows love connection,

we can't deny..!

PS: I'm really glad! you're talking to me now! and invited me to watch Eclipse! :D

"Commited to the Game"

2010-07-02T03:46:00.000-07:00

Vuvuzela!

FIFA WorldCup wave is coming to its climax! Ohmygosh!

You think I'm so into soccer matches? NOT at all.

HAHA. the only match I watched is Korea DPR vs Portugal, 0-7. It's so 'awesome' right! I never watch a match ended up with such result before that, 7 to 0 man! My brother and I were like laughing like mad while watching it! seriously don't get why :S

already used to my eye bags and dark circles :)

By the way, result is out.

and I feel pretty steady with my position, which is 12. Its what I anticipated, I would not get top 10 because of too many strong competitors at front. I guess I got a few B's or C's in non-PMR subjects, which are well.. to me they are useless lar :P but sadly they are the reasons which pull me down :(

After participating the talk of [I Love Life] during the camp, well I guess I'm not taking the positions so seriously anymore. Because you know, the first position is only reserved for 1 person, 1 PERSON! but then everyone is fighting for it. It's like a soccer match, sooooo many fellas go for 1 ball, it's very tiring okay. Aiyoor. Chill, and relax. If I get bad results, I don't think I'm stupid one lor, I only blame myself for not putting enough effort.

Think positive, do positive :) It's no point being sad right? :)

I'm so enjoyed talking to myself in my blog HAHAA.

I read an article about a blogger. The blogger used to blog everything that she disagreed, mad and unhappy with, like all negative stuff lah. Then her friend told her:

"Why would you want to remember things that make you feel down, but not things that can cheer you up when you look back at them? "

She's inspired. She started to blog about random little things, those may not lighten her readers' mood, but only herself and perhaps her friends and family. She realized that happiness is just merely a choice, it can be anywhere, as long as she opens her heart and look for it,

I was like kept nodding my head when I was reading this article. It's so true right! I find blogging is such a great way to jot down things and thoughts in my life. Isn't it? Hahah.

I sort of skipped school for 4 days! Good girl gone bad :P Went for KL trip organized by Chinese Society and visit to Sekolah Teknik at Kajang. taken plenty of photos! HAHAA. but now I gotta sign off for tuition! jajajaja*!

booo byee! :D

PS: Bao. aiyaa. pondok there without your voice is so quiet now :/ 8 months! :)

PSS: perhaps have a chance to meet up my camp friends? woohoo :D

Let me respect you from the bottom of my heart.

2010-06-24T00:33:00.000-07:00

I'm in a cool state.
Hey people. It's me. I was the one who made the complaint on the BM paper. Hate me, criticize me, condemn me, I won't mind. Because I know I did not do anything wrong. The questions had already leaked out before the exam, you all know about it. It's NOT fair from the starting. And I'm just helping my friend to get 2 more marks so she could get an B for her paper.

BM paper2 part B, teacher asked us not to write more than 120 words. Yeah my friend wrote more than that so she only scored 8 out of 20. It's okay to deduct her marks because she didn't follow the instruction. But weird. Many of our classmates did actually wrote more than that but only she, and 2 more girls got deducted marks. How about the others? they still get good marks.

so I thought I could beg for 2 more marks from teacher so my friend could get an B. but what teacher said when she came into our class?

" Saya akan kutip semua kertas balik kerana ada orang complain kat saya. sekarang saya akan double check semua kesalahan, semua orang punya markah mesti turun. "

Is she threatening us? so she means we shouldn't have made any complaint even though we find out there is unfairness? What do you want teacher? We shouldn't fight for our marks huh? You don't wanna admit you have made mistakes in marking paper, you get mad on us. Well teacher. you're so unreasonable!

Yes I know, we should learn from our mistakes.
But in this suckish KRK class they only care about our grads! Our marks! and if we don't argue for the marks we don't get good grads. If we don't get good grads? get out of this class! Berlagak saja! Sombong! Bodoh! You make us into KRK class. and you say we're proud. I don't understand why they wanna label us? we're just students after all sigh. We're learning the same things like the others. Pressure from ~~parents~~, pressure from ~~siblings~~, pressure from competitors, pressure from school, pressure from ourselves. Enough?

Apologies.
If any teachers happen to read this, I don't mean to be impolite here. I know teachers are still teachers. I'll respect. But shouldn't a teacher be a good TEACHER? Made mistake, but don't wanna admit it. The one who forgets her mistake, will repeat it eventually.
" Guru haruslah menjadi model yang baik untuk dicontohi oleh pelajar " is what you taught us to write in our essays, teacher. Practise it and let me respect you from the bottom of my heart.

PS: Teacher, dislike me? Up to you. I never said I'm a good student. These exams are not fair from the beginning. I thought you were great, but now, you're not. I respect you as a knowledgeable teacher, but I pay more respect to a teacher who always be patient to us, who knows how to control her temper well. You're not.

PSS: Sorry. if what I did makes your marks get deducted, I'm really sorry. but I want things to be fair, fair to everyone. I don't want things to be unclear like that.

PSSS: Adeline, put the blame on me, not yourself. It's me who insisted you to fight for the marks. Sigh I make you cry :( hope you're alright. Its just midterm anyway. Be more conscious next time. Like what Vivian said, exams have ups and downs :) take it easy.

You're my Shining Friend ♥

2010-06-19T21:42:00.000-07:00

Boom!

(Yee Ling pops out from nowhere :P)

wooohooo!

It has been weeks since my last post. 2-week holiday is insufficient and its gonna over! Yet I'm pretty contented with my holiday plans, though I didn't get to study or rest much due to outings :D Although I may spent too much time on outings and camp, I'm glad I get to make new friends and tighten the relationships with my friends. Oh! I feel good! da la la la la la la!

The so-called surprise farewell party for Jamie Bao!

Discussion for the party + lunch in Old Town :D

First time yumcha with Vivian and She Ee.

Gathered at Dami before walking to Jamie's house!

We'll miss your loudness :)

While decorating the swimming pool, the annoying gay guard came and stopped us :( then we had to call Jamie down before everyone reached.

Oh. Why is it called as a SURPRISE PARTY? hahaha. Vivian and I told Jamie only two of us were going to visit her on Thursday, but ended up? Up to 20 persons came! HAHAA. Vivian suggested party, then She Ee and I invited people :D BINGO!

However its kind of ruined by the guard :(

Hey but I think it still worked! HAHAHA. see Jamie's face! She's like 'OMG what?!' She was expecting Vivian and I coming hahaha but about 10 persons following at the back! :D

while waiting for the others to come :D

At Jamie's penthouse :)

like the best best best pictures of the day :DD

I used to have a kind of feeling.. There is distance between Jamie and me :( I know I know. She's such a great junior an awesome friend, why would I have this kind of feeling?

me : you know bao? in school actually i have lots of things i wanna tell and share with you. but just because of my poor english i always short of words and in the end i rather keep quiet..

jamie : bao.. there are other ways to express stuff, words are just words.. you can be expressed by movement, art, facial expression. but don't always count on what you see outside, because when you smile, you may not be happy..... well i've learnt to not always be sad coz life is too short, even shorter than me ler.

Yes. Words are just words. love cannot be expressed by only words :) You know I really appreciate my friendship with you Bao :D

Aku bersyukur kerana Tuhan telah memberi peluang kepadaku untuk mengenalimu, Bao :D

Random pictures.

Asam Gang :P

Sista Chee Ren!

Cheryl's sexy leg!

Camwhore pictures.

Kawan!

HOW TO COOK MAGGI MEE?

OMG YEE LING YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO COOK MAGGI MEEEEEE?!!!!

come let me teach you!

(I've forgotten what she has taught actually =.= HAHAA)

Take a cup of maggi mee....

okay open the cup.. throw the paper.

ah! hot water?

wooohoooo pour the hot water into the cup! careful ah. then cover it.

after that?

LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH! while waiting. :D

the most awaiting part! open the cover!

EAT! ;D

AHAHA I'm laughing to my computer like crazy when typing this! LOL!

Friends, Family, Boyfriend/Girlfriend. Who would you put first in your list?

I will definitely choose Family.
Boyfriend and friends come and go, but family does not. They are forever. We're forever connected to them no matter what. Even if you have the biggest argument with your family, you hate them thoroughly, you still can never change the relationship with your family. So, if argument does happen, remember: tolerate, respect and love :)

Friend is the second in my list.
Friends, they are important in our life. No one would say they can live without friends, would you? It's hard to find our best friend, I wonder, do they actually exist? Heh. At different ages and stages we make different friends. Friends are just like stops in our life. When its time to move on to the next stop, we have to leave the previous stop and go. I assume this is why I don't believe in 'forever friends', unless I die at this moment =.=

Good friends delight and brighten our life, they give your love, they care about you, they make you feel warm and hopeful towards life. Most importantly, they lead you to the positive road ; Bad friends, bring bad influence into our life, yet we can't deny that, we always learn from mistakes. When we trust on a wrong friend, we become smarter in making friends next time. So yeah. Don't hate or criticize those who have cheated us, take them as our teacher, they teach us precious and priceless life lessons :) You can even thanks them :)

I never give up in believing friend. If you do make efforts to change, yes, I would say you're still my friend :)

PS:::: Bao! Must keep the optimistic character to you no matter what. Always smile with your heart :) Love yeah :D All the best in Aussie! :)

LoveGivesMeHope :)

2010-06-05T08:14:00.000-07:00

Was listening some Chinese olden songs at channel866 Astro. I used to anti these kinda songs because they are seriously old. some songs are like before I've existed. hahaa. But as time passes by I slowly open my heart for them, since my mom loves them. And guess what? they are surprisingly relaxing :) hahaha. my favourite song is -不要问我从哪里来我的故乡在远方..- and -忘不了- Damn nice! :P

Well! Mid-year exams are over! what a relief! Oleh Oleh! :D
ahh I don't need you to remind me of PMR. hahaa I know this is a temporary Merdeka :( but at least I can take a break now. Holidays! I can recharge my low battery within these two weeks :D

Impacts of exams to me:
- more and more pimples appear

- dark circles even even darker

- lose weight

- look unhealthy and pale

- hair becomes even more messy hahaa

before and after exam.
hahaaa. yeah I changed my hairstyle again! mushroom! :P

I was in real low spirit during the exam days. It started when I realized I made a silly reckless stupid mistake in English paper. Sigh. The essay was supposed to be informal letter format but I forgot to do it :( OUCH. It demoralized me till I didn't have mood to study the following subjects which were Sejarah and Geografi - my weakest subjects. Pressure was like squeezing me into a dead rat on road. *LOL I'm using dont-know-what-english hahaa* Nothing went into my mind! I even tried studying online. Still didn't work. and I cried into my sleep that night.

What has moved me during this hard time was, I realized I have the best sister of the world :)

I often stressed out when there is an exam. it's hard for me to hide and suppress my feelings in front of my sister when we're sharing the same room. Sis saw me crying. She kept quiet. She let my tears to relieve my stress. Tears did help a little. I thought I was okay but the next day, I cried during my Chinese exam, out of sudden. My mind was in darkness..

Darn. I don't wanna recall about the days.

When I reached home after school, I felt like crying :X
Sis drew this on my white board. It's a just simple drawing, with the words 加油 which mean gambateh. owhhh. The two words and the piggie moved my heart :) This is so encouraging. Other than that, my sis knows I love chocolate. At the same day, she bought me 2 bars of chocolate. Hahaha. They really did cheer me up! Sis hearts me. Her love and caring GMH :)

____________

My small but blissful family :) Mothers' day.

Dearest aunt and jie. heee. at Hoi Tin

We may have great social life but doesn't mean we have true friends. Sigh.

I'd choose to be a loner rather than having those fake 'friends' around. Don't you agree?

Sunny Sunday! :D

2010-05-22T19:43:00.000-07:00

It's absolutely worthy to sacrifice my bedtime for such awesome sunny morning :)

I feel so refreshing now! :D thanks guys for inviting me to play BASKETBALL lols but I ended up jogging alone in the park, cycling, and err playing kids' things there :P hahah. You just gotta love the peace in such morning :)

peace with the nature :)

KIAN LIM sexy pose you have there hahaa.

weeee? Chee Ren wearing skirt heee :P

I love mornings :)

Mornings give me a kind of feeling like.. Hey I'm actually breathing. The feeling of blessed :)

I love mornings :)

Okay this is random hahaha. Cheese tarts oh my baby! I like them so damn much! :D

Hee sign off for Sejarah hee! woah I love Sunday! :DDD

PS: hmmmp Adeline you didn't come :(

Eliz

with lots of love,

24/5/2010

10.48am

Teachers' Day

2010-05-22T07:18:00.000-07:00

Boom! I love you! :D

Oh my I'm in a super good mood now! :D

hahahaa my mom just approved me to take part in this holiday camp! wooohoo :D! it's my first time! not those taxing camps which I used to join in school heeehee. umm well maybe it's not as fun as those camps in school but I'm sure I can gain new experiences and make new friends because I'm gonna mix with a bunch of totally unknown people from different places. Teeheee! :D

Oh come back Yee Ling. Your exam hasn't over yet! :X hahaha.

Hello exams stress! I'm here! :X

But as you all know, I'm always an optimist for life and everything yeah, I will never be defeated by stress or depression :) Last few days I was like.. cried a lot huh? :/ Till I barely opened my eyes properly for one day because they were too puffy. Sigh. Please forgive me. I was born to be a crybaby hahaa :( But hey. Crying doesn't mean I'm not strong okay? I'm physically a jelly hahaa but in fact, I'm mentally stronger than anyone of you :P

And I finally surrender to her.

I don't know what have I done wrong even though I've been digging for the answer since last year. The friendship between her and I is always unstable. Sometimes, we were like the closest friends like no other; Sometimes, we talked like we were just hi-bye friends; Sometimes, we didn't talk at all; Sometimes, she did not even want to set her eyes on me, like I was an eyesore to her.

I tried to figure out the problem. I even asked her what's the problem, face to face. And she evaded it with a smile. She didn't want to talk about it. The problem, or maybe problems, seemed to be solved but actually it did not. Its like, NEVER.

I'm tired of getting this friendship back.

I don't know how does she feel towards me. We seem so far apart. I know. I know there is something wrong with me, just that she doesn't know how to express it to me. We will never be friend again when the problem hasn't been identified yet. Well it's okay :) Because I'm already the loser. I hate cold wars. That's why I surrender. and now I'm trying my best to off your life. I guess that's what you want huh? Sorry for everything that I did :) I'll just let it be.

___________________________________________________________

*switched mood

Teachers' Day yeepeee! ;D

and I'm blogging about Teachers' day before I totally disappear in my blog and facebook :D

It was Teacher's day celebration in school on last last Friday. For those who missed it, you have missed out lots of fun xD

I'm neither capable nor helpful to teachers and so I don't think I'm an apple of teachers' eyes hahaa. Besides, I don't make effort to socialize with teachers. Perhaps that is the main reason why I don't have strong feelings towards this so-called special day for teachers :/

Camera took me around the school, killed boredom. Without it, I would probably have just sat at the assemble site for the whole day. There was no place for me to sit anyway because 2 sessions of students had to squeeze in the small assemble site, plus I was late. I think our school seriously need a bigger renovation during holidays eh?

Taking picture with Bao is always the funnest xD she will always gladly pose whatever sampat face you want hahaha. Good example is this: cross-eyed expression. Copied from Cheryl. I FAILED ==

I was very bored and free because I didn't take part in any performance nor preparation for this event. Alas. Why so few people go Christofe learn modern jazz one! == If not I can perform too! :( Haven't been performing voluntarily in this school. Up until now I only met some ex-seniors in Christofe which are Minyi aka my idol, SinYin and Jin Rui. Have been learning together with Ying Ying and Kai Xin. Now Connie Tan joined :D And yeah, if the God allows, I will have chance to perform somewhere on 17th of July hahaha. Perhaps it will be in conjunction with trial exam? :(

The beatbox gang Ka Siong aka the scary-muscular one and Chee Ren aka my freaking tall sista. hahaa. GAH why guys should have such nice teeth but I don't lols.

Sampat friends can always make you laugh xDD

with the scouts Jia Jia, Sherny and Lee Ping, Denice at the front :)

Suki the pretty with needle eyes xDD

Drama team the girls :)

So yeah lets start off the performance huhu!

Silat with keris :D new style wei! had been watching the same old Silat performance and finally they updated hahaa.

These two girls amazed me :D Pretty cool!

Fan dance as usual heh. but I like their new costumes.

Indian dance. Not sexy at all but still considered not bad la :) 1 Malaysia right? hahaha.

and why the heck did I miss this hilarious part grrr. Teh Tarik ~~man~~ teacher hahaa!

The form4 drama team! woohoo my favourite performance that day heee. Those guys purposely shaved their hair just to act as bad students woah. I was impressed hahaa. Provided most laughter for the day haah.

to act like bad students. they even danced Bad Romance in one of the scene and this guy apparently imitating MJ's dance moves lols. well he does really look like a gangster :X This was a nice performance I must say! :D

everyone was like leaving to somewhere when they were performing hmm :/

Dikir Barat. Umm not as nice as last year one because they take in new students. Lack of practice perhaps? still a nice show though :)

The beatbox gang woohoo! Puan Salimah's looked like she doesn't like it :( but hah! Still lots of people cheered for them! and that's the point :D and I shouted till I had sore throat LOL

Ah I like this team too! They performed 21Guns and some Malay songs which I think were pretty nice too! everyone was like so high during their performance :D

Azzam/Azzem! I don't how to differentiate them lah. I think.. Round watch is Azzam, square watch is Azzem. hahaha both of them are HOT anyway! hahaaa :D

Dark-eyed Aiman on the left and skinny Nazif on the right. The singer Azim didn't get to snap his photo ler :X hahaa

Pity Ka Yao who didn't get to perform even after putting so much effort :( hmm our school has lousy sound system sigh .

Performance done lets view some random photos ba :D

Kian Lim and Justin ~~Bieber/Timberlake~~ Lee

with Yumi and Rong Rong. Yin Ying and Zhe Qi. wee!

Me and Yin Ying with the beatbox gang.
~~Puan Afidah~~ Sher Lyn is behind :P

Okay lazy upload photo d hahaa. Gotta sign off for revision hee. tomorrow going for basketball hee! Good luck for those who are sitting for exams! :D

PS: Jun is coming :)

Eliz

22/5/10

10.24pm

纪念初恋。

2010-05-17T04:07:00.000-07:00

再次见证朋友一段不欢而散的恋情。
曾犹豫是否要介入这件事当个“和事婆”，但我退缩了。我知道，我只是个局外者，我没有资格。却不知不觉的，我把朋友的这件事情，投射在自己的身上。

我，和他，怎么样了？

我到如今也不明白，为什么，我会为一段没有开花结果的恋情而总是耿耿于怀？
别人啊，他们曾经在一起，有过明朗的关系，山盟海誓，深深爱过对方。感情结束了，他们可以名正言顺的伤心欲绝，流泪；又或者是光明正大的避开对方。充电之后，带着某些阴影，继续往前方的路走。

我呢？
很明显我可以继续我的路程。一个人也无所谓。因为我知道，在这世界上，没有谁失去了谁后就活不下去。毕竟人生是自己掌控的，快乐由自己决定。

但，或许在感情路上，这增添了多一份苦涩的滋味。

我和他，什么都没有。没有什么特别浪漫的事情，没有经历过什么争执，没有什么大风大浪，没有什么特别的日子，可以让我们对彼此有深刻的回忆。因为我们不曾是情侣。
这就只是纯纯的爱。

《初恋红豆冰》这电影，阿牛当年的感觉，或许就是我现在所感受的吧？
我总是嘲笑自己幼稚。我对这份所谓“感情”的执著，来到了第三个年头。记载着从我喜欢上他开始的日记，他写给我的纸条，两年前开始拍下的照片，唯一正式的礼物手链，我根本舍不得丢。要不是我之前的手提坏了，大概我还会留着两年前的信息吧。你开始认同我幼稚了，对吧？哈。

那是我唯一在想念的时候，可以让我回味的办法。

我知道我们已经不需要对方了。
他有他的新交友圈子，过着新生活。为了适应新环境而忙碌，加上时间的漂白，要淡忘过去的人和物就变得简单多了；而我，虽然还是停留在同样的环境和面对同样的面孔，但我也有我的新挑战，新目标。对我来说，时间是最佳良药。偶尔还是会想念，但我很清楚，过去的已经过去了，我们不可能再从新体验当时的感觉。既使我们现在碰面了，我们已经不是当初的我们了，对吗？

我写这篇文章的目的，并不是想要他回来。我只是需要成长。
我不能再重复犯错，当我明知自己不会付出爱时，自私地要求别人的爱。谁也不需向谁道歉，我们之间并没有谁对谁错，因为我们都曾经心甘情愿去喜欢对方，去爱对方。我们的结局，是最好的结局。

为我们各自的梦想而奋斗吧！=D

仪琳

17/5/2010

7:12pm

Glee! :D

2010-05-10T05:32:00.000-07:00

Glee Flashmob dance looks so fun eh? wow

Let's announce the Perasan Queen Winner! *Jiang Jiang!* -Soh Yee Ling!
=="

phew.
It has been an eventful yet hectic week. finally I've got some time to online. hee!
Still have a few projects to go sigh. and mid-year exam is just ahead of us. PMR! am anxiously counting down on it. Im not ready for anything and everything yet :(

Alright. forget it. Still have 154 days to go anyway :)
Lately we girls were asked to perform Pergerakan Kreatif (creative moves eh in english?) during PJK classes. Our team is putting much effort on it. Dancing a Japanese or Korean song which is so-not-my-style hahaa. Hopefully will get cheers from everyone on Wednesday heehee =D

School Teacher's Day celebration is on Friday. wanted to join performance by dancing the songs I've been learning in Christofe. but no partners sigh. My partner Thevia goes for belly dance :/ Never mind. I'll still be going to school on Teacher's day. Hee to support my sista aka Chee Ren eh eh eh! :D hahahaa. I'll shout till my lungs burst kay? hahaha =.=

okay I run out of ideas to blog. sign off for Sejarah note. T__T I've become a real nerd now hahaa.

My mom will not read this.

2010-05-05T03:45:00.000-07:00

______________________________________________________________________________

4/5/2010

I'm sorry, mom.

I was completely exhausted after school and extra classes yesterday. However when I reached home, I still forced myself to work on my countless of homework with my heavy eyelids. Finally I couldn't take it and I went for a half-hour sleep. Silent phone.

Raining. Alarm rang after half an hour then I woke up.
I was surprised that my mom had called me for 4 times but I didn't realize at all! I wonder where my soul had gone during that period? I managed to answer the fifth call and mom was yelling with a broken voice over the phone.

"你去了哪里?! 做什么不接电话!"

(where have you been?! why never answer my call!)

I was like 'huh?' and went down stair in a blurry state. My maid was outside, must have just came back from working with mom, but where's mom? I opened the door for maid. At that moment, an Unser driver accelerated from the intersection and stopped by in front of my house.
My mom hopped down from the car with a serious and mad face.

"你讲你在做什么！衣没有收！电话不接！你神经病！没有脑！真的没有脑！真的不知道你的脑是要来做什么的！废材！"

(...)

She was really really really MAD at me. This was my second time I slept so soundly until I did not realize everything happened around me. I was totally like a DEAD BODY! =( my mom had been screaming my name outside for half an hour! she even climbed into the house and hit the door but I never heard anything! what the hell was wrong with me!?

Maybe I should sleep in the living room instead of bedroom. I was lucky this time, I may not be so lucky next time. If a fire occurred, I would probably have died. If someone broke into my house to commit crime, I would probably have been murdered )=O Anything could happen.

I cried and cried and cried. Not because of mom's words though they're hurting. I cried because I made my mom so worried and went insane. I feel seriously guilty. She thought I passed out or someone had kidnapped me. I know the feeling. It's like..Your heart is dropping, you can barely breathe. You will just go crazy when the ones you really care, disappear just like that and you have no news of them, and find them nowhere. CRAZY!

My mom is 46 years old now. She can't take this kind of shock again and again. I should never make her angry, worry and sad anymore.

I'm sorry, mom.

PS: mom, wish you a happy Mother's Day anyway :)

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5/5/2010

07:56pm

Eliz

in this little 'Society'

2010-04-25T03:56:00.000-07:00

First thing I wanna say is, school life rocks! :D

School life is simply nice to me when I get to know friends who have so many common thoughts with me. Besides, they are someone who can read and understand my feelings. I feel like I've reunited my missing twin sisters hahaha. well well. I'm pretty lucky. I found 2 of my twin sisters :)

Adeline, who always appears in my blog. heee. well I wish our friendship can be lasting. It's hard to find a friend like you. You're always being caring for me :) I learn things from you. I'm really glad I can have a friend like you, Adeline. though sometimes you're annoying like how Im annoying to you hahahah. love ya! =D

Yin Ying. Get to know her during CNY performance in school this year. The first impression she gave me is: she's totally a camwhore freak and omg she's taller than me?! LOL. that's not a very good impression I guess? hahaa. we have so many common opinions on life and people. It's not easy to me to find someone has same point of views towards life. because my views are just so outstanding hahaa.

School is just like a little society. We acquaint with people, learn how to be socialized and attend to people. Studying is our career, teachers are managers, whereas pricipal is our CEO lols.
Adults that I talk to have been telling us people in society only look for benefits. Sometimes they're forced to be selfish as they need to survive. Blabla. I have no qualm on this.

NO. Perhaps time has changed, I've already seen an example in school.
Most people dislikes her. Sigh. I don't hate her but I'm feeling kind of disapponted. We used to be very close friend, very close indeed. but that was 2 years ago.

Her true personality was revealed when she once lied on teacher, trying to push me and my friend into a hot pot. She will only make friends with those who can benefit her. She will look for you when she needs you. but when you need her, she will just ignore. Her temper is most unbearable. I guess you as a prefect already who is she. I'm always being true to my feelings and I did try to hint her about her problems. I bet she knows what the problems are and perhaps in 0.0000001% she did try to change it, but I didn't see the effort. After all, she is still the same. Those who are still close to her, please, do advise her. Despite of everything, I have to admit that she's a very capable girl. but that's is not the way to live your life! :)

Alright. end this serious topic. Let's see some photos hee

Saturday I just participated in an activity held by Kerjaya Club(which is the club for PRS heee). I had so much fun although it only lasted for about 30 minutes =D Our counselor teachers invited some lectures form PTPL college and they planned treasure hunt for us! xDD

You wonder how? it only took 30 minutes.

Task 1:

Alright. As what we always did in camps, we had to design our group flag. The condition was we had to use recyclable materials. and yes! no doubt this is our (: Hui Jin, Denice and I) awesome flag! wooohoo. its a broom decorated by petals and leaves. honestly I like it pretty much hahaa.Creativity on spot =P

In fact we needed to create our own cheers but seriously we ran out of time, so the the lecturer just canceled it. Thanks god, I hate creating cheers hmmmp. but still, Puan Norliah gave us an cheers idea which was : Boom Boom Pupa Boom! hahaa sounds not bad though :D (does she watch Discovery channel too? heee boom de yada!)

Task 2:
We headed to checkpoint 2 after getting the clue requesting us to go assemble site.

See those straws? Our task was to make a 'building' which can bear the bottle weight within 3 minutes. We didn't manage to do it on time then ended up got deducted 2 marks. Sad :( still we got the clue for next checkpoint which was in front of the mosque.

Didn't get to take any picture because it's a rush hour! LOL we ran ran and ran of coarse Hui Jin aka olahraga ran faster than Denice and I lar hahaa. Then we realised we were behind of Crystal and Ah Tung's group :( lolss

Task 3: Collect plastic bottles.
We stole those bottles from classes and dug some out from rubbish bin ewww :X but still had fun! hahaaa

Task 4:

What kind of task was it which made Denice looked so uneasy?

Body checkup! wth body checkup in canteen? LOL this was absolutely weird and it took most time to wait for our turn. Hui Jin took blood type test whereas Denice and I took blood pressure test. New things that I've tried out lolss

Denice's blood pressure was just nice but mine is 95..kinda low hmm. ideal one should be 120 :(

Game over! we got 4th place if I'm not mistaken. hahaa. some photos after game.

Group 1 Denice, Hui Jin and I with our flag. Warrior! hahaa

we look cute kalalala~ =D

Azzim with his so-called flag. =)

Adeline, where is the picture which I suck Crystal's milk? xDD

PS: Shouldn't think too much. that couldn't be me :)

PSS: Oh oh. Mid term is coming :(

Eliz

25/4/2010

7.00pm

初恋红豆冰！

2010-04-17T09:12:00.000-07:00

was pasting the poster onto the wall in coffee shop. Ah Niu! we all support you okay! =D

Ice Kacang Puppy Love!

This is my very first time I talk about movie in my blog! =D
because I just don't know how to comment or rate a movie. but this movie Ice Kacang Puppy Love, is worthy to watch! I rate 5 out of 5 stars! heee

阿牛.

He's not hot but he looks so innocent and baby-faced right? one word. Cute! =.=

He is pretty well-known in China but not in Malaysia. So you may not know who is him.
One of the reasons I'm being so supportive to this movie is, I've actually seen and known Ah Niu, who is the director and the main character of this movie. He has been my mom's mixed-rice customer since years ago in fact =D and I once sat at the same table and had my lunch with him hahaah. so it considered I know him lar =P He is such a friendly guy!

The second reason is simply because its a local chinese movie! Support local movie! if you did watch WooHoo then you must watch this too to compare lar. I haven't watched WooHoo yet (yeah I know I'm outdated) so can't tell you which one is better. Anyway my sister said the storyline of Ice Kacang is better than WooHoo.

Yes! You can watch it in Jusco, The Mines or Leisure Mall ! Go support! =D

Oh yeah. The third reason is, there are so many renowned singers such as Gary曹格, Fish梁静茹, 品冠, Nicholas Teo张栋梁, Penny Tai戴佩妮 and experienced actresses like Angelica Lee Sin-Jie李心洁 are taking part in this movie.

Thinking that this movie is boring? YOU ARE TOTALLY WRONG! it is an touching and laugh-out-loud movie!

PS:It's a MUST-WATCH! support support! =D

18/4/10

12.16am

Eliz.

Stress

2010-04-16T08:48:00.000-07:00

I was asking Sofea to look at the camera. LOL Shakira on the left and Ain on the right =)

I was in the midst of deciding whether I should delete my blog or not since it is so dead and facebook account too. Sometimes I just don't know why, blogging and facebook-ing make me have low self-esteem =O Indeed. they make me feel so bad. AWFULLY BAD

Weird? Oh, yes. I'm absolutely a weirdo xD

But Adeline reignited my blogging mood. With the pictures she has taken! =D Perhaps I'm someone that cannot live without camera? once I realize the presence of camera I would start posing and making weird expressions. hahaa.

I don't camwhore much lately because I know you guys feel annoyed with my hairstyle.

ish YOU CUT YOUR HAIR AGAIN!

response of most my friends hahaa.

the last day of Cikgu Roszana as our art teacher =(

Stress.

Regarding to my title, yes I'm going to talk about stress. Stress can kill, don't you agree?

I read some articles that those students who received too much pressure on study, ended up committing suicide. Awww. Poor cases.

I was told by my mom about a girl, who is now having psychologic problem. She was the PMR candidate, and she scored full A's for it. She is a form 4 student this year. Having high expectation for her exams, she didn't score good marks for some of the subjects. She was demoralized. She can't get out of the disappointment.. Now, she is not going to school. She has to see psychology doctor, and need to consume medicine. Is it called Melancholia?

I was like 'huh? why mom is telling me all this?'

She was actually trying to advise me through this affair. She always says 'Try your best, that's it. Don't take those results so seriously. I just want you to do your best. No matter what results you get, as long as you try your best, I'll be satisfied.'

That's encouraging. It keeps me motivated since primary school.

My parents never assert any pressure on me, never offer any reward either. Yet I always expect myself to get good results. I want myself to be good.

I'm that kind of student like, during the week before exam, I will lock myself in the room, study study study and burn midnight oil. In fact, for many times I cried and screamed in my pillow, scratched or bit my hands when things that I was trying to memorize couldn't go into my mind. It looked like I had the tendency.. That's so not me, isn't it?

But the old me is gone. You're being over-worried, mom.Your daughter is now an optimist. I'm working hard and expecting for full A's in PMR. Yet in the other hand, I'm ready to accept the fact if I don't get the results I wish. Life still has a long way to go. There are plenty of challenges ahead of me.

"Exam failure is not frightening, the point is, we have to learn adjusting our way of thinking, be confident anytime, don't take the results so seriously, thereby we can keep going to the road we want to"

---- <中学生 236>

_______________________________ ________ __________ _______________________ _____

Social stress.

Not talking about relationship lolss I'm single but not available =D hahaaa. yeah it's about friends.

I often have a kind of feeling that something is wrong among us, girls. A lot of secrets, we are hiding them from each other, yeah? I don't like this feeling. I'm having doubts. If you girls think that my attitude or words are wrong, speak it out. Don't hide it. Sigh. I want you girls back =(

PS: MUST watch ICE KACANG PUPPY LOVE!

I miss the days we had in the past..

16/4/10

11.50pm

Eliz.

2010-04-14T04:25:00.001-07:00

有时候交谈变得空洞，

沉默却像沟通，当情人那么沉重，

当朋友反而轻松。

有时候孤独可以寂寞，

也可以是自由，能安慰自己的人比较容易快乐。

woolalaa!

2010-04-10T07:27:00.000-07:00

Dead.

Still.

MUST CAMWHORE!
=D

Seriously need enough sleep and catch up with my study. Everything is going back to normal!

PS: and guys.. sport's day is over. So forget what had happened before or after this event alright? peace! =)

Booboo! sweet dream people! <3

2010-04-05T07:34:00.000-07:00

Im gonna have this hairstyle soon! =D

hope it can suit me well hee!

even the more stylish one wooo!

Something to say before updating..

2010-04-02T01:51:00.000-07:00

Wee-de-de-de, de-de-de-de-de de, we-um-um-a-way
Wee-de-de-de, de-de-de-de-de de, we-um-um-a-way
Wee-de-de-de, de-de-de-de-de de, we-um-um-a-way

A wimoweh, a-wimoweh a-wimoweh, a wimoweh
A wimoweh, a-wimoweh a-wimoweh, a wimoweh
A wimoweh, a-wimoweh a-wimoweh, a wimoweh!

can guess what song is it?
The Lion Sleeps tonight! =D neh the fatty boom boom hippo and the dog! xD
hahahaa I can't stop laughing when listening to this song! another cheerful song for me other than Boom De Ya Da! hahahaa

If love songs are stupid.. Then just don't listen to them! xP

hoho! it's weekend again! wooo now I'm always looking forward to weekends because I can watch Forensic Heroes on Saturday and Journey to West aka xun mm hong on Sunday! ah I know these two dramas are super outdated hahaa but I tell you I can watch them hundred times but still won't get bored. LOL

Oh I have the mood to update now. but since I've not much things to blog lately, Im gonna blog about Thailand trip lah. hahaaa. woooo you're gonna see lots of hot girls in my next post xDD

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